Sydney- Australian tennis star Nick Kyrgios says he had suicidal thoughts, abused drugs and harmed himself during a dark time in his life in 2019.
The controversial crowd supporter, who won the Australian Open doubles title last month, posted a lengthy message on Instagram on Thursday night detailing his mental health struggles.
He linked it to a photo from the 2019 Australian Open in which he pointed to marks on his arm.
“That was me 3 years ago at the Australian Open. Most would assume I was mentally fine or just enjoying my life… that was one of my darkest times,” he said. said the 26-year-old.
“If you look closely, on my right arm, you can see my self-harm. I was having suicidal thoughts and literally having trouble getting out of bed, let alone performing in front of millions of people.
“I was lonely, depressed, negative, abusing alcohol, drugs, pushing away my family and friends. I felt like I couldn’t talk to or trust anyone.
Kyrgios had a rollercoaster season ahead of the 2019 Australian Open and was frequently criticized for his on-court antics.
Extremely talented, he was also combustible and earned a reputation for exploding and collapsing on the pitch.
He said on Instagram that his descent into depression and suicidal thoughts was “the result of not opening up and refusing to lean on my loved ones”.
Kyrgios added that he was now “proud to say that I have completely turned around and have a completely different view of everything” and offered to help others who were struggling.
“I know that daily life can seem extremely exhausting, sometimes impossible. I understand that you think that if you open up, it can make you feel weak or scared. I’m telling you right now, it’s okay, you’re not alone,” he said.
“Please don’t feel alone, if you feel like you can’t talk to anyone, I’m here, get in touch.”
Kyrgios, whose ranking has dropped to No 137, is the latest in a string of top athletes to speak publicly about their mental health, a group that includes fellow tennis star Naomi Osaka.
The former world No. 1 took a long break last year after a tearful third-round exit from the US Open in September – the culmination of a difficult time when she was plagued with doubt and said have suffered from depression.
If you or someone you know is in crisis and needs help, resources are available. In case of emergency, please call 119 in Japan for immediate assistance. The TELL lifeline is available for those who need free, anonymous advice on 03-5774-0992. You can also visit telljp.com. For those in other countries, visit International Suicide Hotlines for a detailed list of resources and support.
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